I N F I N I T E

A HOME IS PURCHASED BY 3 PENCILS

21 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment

by edigyol in comparative religion, daily life, I N D O N E S I A

HOW HAPPY I AM TO HEAR MY FIRST DAUGHTER’S DEMAND TO STUDY TOGETHER…

just after finishing our daily programmes, even it is a little late for a 7 years child for not sleeping at this time,
so I follow her to sit on chair in her studying room.

after correcting some previous exams and we needed to sharpen our pencils, suddenly my daughter refused her pencil to be sharpened.

in fact, from her aunt & uncle’s gift is 3 pencils whose undoubtful quality is guaranteed.Its brand is faber castell.

she said to me’ theses pencils will be used as I will be at the second class in the next few month’
and I replied ‘ do not worry to much. We will buy some same quality pencils as you have now for your convenience.
Your main concern is just to study and study.
having no faber castell is your fathers’ original sins.
I replied, adding some ‘stupid’ religious context.

but what surprised me was her adult-like answer.
she replied innocently with her greatest concern about my exixtential salary,
Father, I want you to save your money to buy me a home for my 7th birthday.
not to buy me again those pencils. I am happy to write with this still-useable pencil even it becomes so small in my hand’s grip.
those 3 pencils will be used as I will be in the second class. so do not buy me some new pencils, I can still use this old one.

you know. how does it feel when a father hear and feel it from her child?
it is an unbelievable thing!
it is more precious than a box of gold…like my christian ucle used to influence me.

while in other hand, he began to realize my theologic concern about what the whole chirstian world insist to belive.

is it our god is just our mental projection?
because talking about him is a metaphysical speculation as ever.

and later I was daily attacked by my moslem wife.
Because she keeps trying to ‘indulge’ me in her islamic justification dogmas also. with which I often consider. perceive it as 2 things, apriori and premature.
for what???

to say or to insist or to believe or whatever man might do to generalize his ‘hegemonic’ language

that my religion is the only TRUTH WHILE OTHERS ARE HELL- DWELLER.

WOW… I like this world to much as I like this mental-physical discussion.

but I will continue this tomorrow.

oks thanks for contacting me in this world of fuzzy abstraction.